Dreamland

This afternoon, my mum friend’s call to my house phone, she tot we have cancel our house phone line due to she had call yesterday. Well, the passed 5 days, no internet connection and house phone cannot be used. Not becuz i didn’t pay the bill, i should Thank to Singtel sia, 3 in 1 package “Mio box”. Once the modem spoilt, internet and house phone will cut off. Lucky didn’t affected my hp line. This morning, the singtel sent a technician to my house to change the modem, everything have settle but only my brother labtop, have some problem of the connection.

Talk about my brother laptop, tol is time for me to look for new desktop. My pc super slow. I can go for a shower and eat a meal just to wait for my pc to ready for me to use. My brother want me to buy labtop but laptop is too easy to get spoil if use too long for everyday. As for desktop, will not so easy, can use very long every day, even can juz on it and leave it there if hv other things need to do 1st. so rather buy desktop instead of laptop. Hopefully i can get a better pc and won’t costy ba. ha…  

Last week, i asked one of the master sg in my shift who getting marries on next yr jan. I asked her about how she look for wedding package. So we just talk about it. My shift neo that i might be getting marries soon due to i’m asking about wedding stuff. They hv told me what to take note… Suddenly some one asked me a few question…

• R u sure u want to marry to him?
• Hv u think carefully?
• U should neo his unit like to go clubbing, their ppl like to anyhow outside, that’s y hv a lot of ppl divorce in their unit, u not scare u will be one of them be divorce too?
• if u think u wan to marry to him, make sure u don’t regret in the future. ( he said he expect i will regret in the future)

My bf unit culture, i cannot change it. It is becuz i have no idea why his unit like to go clubbing… Will i regret in future? I hv no idea… Actually, i really don’t like he go clubbing, bcuz remind me of something. Frankly, after this person ask me those negative questions, i am thinking of should i have kid straight after marry or should i wait for 2- 3 yrs time… Why i will have this kind of thinking so sudden? Without kid, if he go clubbing often or same thing happen within 1 - 2 yrs, i can juz sign and leave, easy for him and me. Myabe can say i’m not a open minder enough but at least i have done what a wife should do and i let him to hv the life he want, clubbing often and do whatever he want at clubbing without someone beside to say/nag/ worse is quarrel all the time and bother about him. Am i rite? So i hope he really think carefully whether izzit he really want to settle down on yr 2011? Life style will have some change… Clubbing hv to cut down… spend more time at home…

Well, although the event had end since last week, i thought many people will forget it, but when i went to work, there’s still people talk about it. Some of them gave me a nick name call peacock princess or peacock. OMG! i don’t really like it… But heard that i got 2nd in the run way event, the feeling was really good. ha… I do mention that i still have two more activity to go on, but now i left one. I rejected to go for frisbee, i know what i can and cannot. I have mention to the mdm very long ago that i don’t want to play but end up she still put me in. My shift people say that i only have two leg, the frisbee is before the cross country, if anything happen, who going to run? They think the mdm will just blame on me of why i’m so careless only.

Been working in shift work for 4 months, i notice that work afternoon shift is quite “sianz”. I like to work in the morning due to time pass very fast. So what can we do if there’s not much thing to do during afternoon shift? Well, some time we will talk rubbish or gossip. Eg. Like will gossip others unit. Noone neo that the others two unit are very famous in divorce, carry on a clandestine love affair then kena caught by wife, who break with who becuz of third-party and etc… Those who have add them in facebook/ friendster, most of their photo are cling on one another( girl on guy/ guy on girl), hug each other and etc, and most of the photo are at clubbing. But surprise is they can treat it like nothing and normal… So we think is their unit culture. That is why there’s so many of bad impression for us.

My shift people will askme something when they are gossip others two unit. My reply is still the same, trust of my bf. But i can admit after that incident happened, i still trust him but with a worry and scare. Why i will worry and scare? Guess what? last time, the impression he gave me was he neo what he is doing, so i will tot that he will think of my feeling and neo the limit, i really rest assure to let he do whatever he wan, never stop him go clubbing. Yet now is totally different becuz the impression he gave it to me is he is no different to those guy in his unit and another unit. It juz like a person kena a cut by the knife, feel very painful, so this person will be extremely careful when using a knife next time or maybe rather use scissors to replace knife. So I worry is that i don’t want to have the same case happen on me, i mean like divorce in future, especially if have kids. I’m scare is becuz i don’t want to hear from him that guy fool around outside is common, i should take it easy, is social, so i have to accept it or suddenly tell me that he want to break with me due to he have feeling on other girl which he never tot he will fall on her last time. What i can say is after the incident, is a “fear” for me… i.i

Just begin of Nov, my shift people have started to talk about Christmas Day… they have start to ask what to eat for that day bcuz some of them have to do the planning. As for me, i’m just join in the discussion of what to buy for bf. Hmm… actually i have no idea what to buy for him for this year… Some of them give me a ideal is not to buy, just meet up for a wonderful Christmas dinner together. They also do that due to becuz every year will have a Christmas day.

Since the Christmas is coming, mostly people will make a Christmas Wish. Although i don’t make Christmas wish every year, but this year i will… Same wish as my Birthday wish. I neo the wish i make will not come true… Wondering why? bcuz he will not do it. I mention before he’s not a romantic  guy, he think that do this kind of things, only bcuz girl feel romantic. Once in the life time, but since he will think of that… So i juz make a wish for fun ba… ha. Well, i do discuss with some girl-friend due to some of them getting marry soon. Few of them will say why not force him to do? I think there’s no point to force, if force, mean he juz do something that he been force to do so… If he think it is right or have to do so, he will do. Just like he mention before, during our wedding day, if my girl-friend who i invite to be my sister, want him to eat chili, he will just leave. I told those who will be my sister during my wedding bcuz they had asked me what he don’t like to eat. They say if he really do that, just leave becuz he don’t want to eat spicy things that he can’t take it. Then there’s no point to marry to him if he really do that, it is becuz in the future, if he face things that he can’t take it, he will just leave u as what he did the same as the spicy thing. The reason of why sister will do it to the groom during wedding day, see whether the groom can take the challenge of taking care his future wife. But i think for some guy, they will think it’s a chance to bully the groom or etc.  So i think the spicy part, my sister will still do it, depend he want to eat or choose to leave, is a challenge for himself. Anyway, is just a discussion between me and my friends quite long ago. I also never mention any more, even if my bf have mention to anyone infront of me, i juz smile onli. I don’t talk too much about it bcuz if really that happen, at least i neo he’s not the right one, then i should consider of lucky i didn’t marry to him, although people will talk about the groom just leave bcuz he don’t want to eat spicy thing, but i will tell them that at least better than after marry to him and thing happen, he just leave me to die rite. haha…

Yesterday evening, i was so worry and nervous becuz i hv to walk cat walk infront of many people. Why i will worry? Although i hv been trained to walk cat walk and even watch the video how they do the posture and what is the correct way to walk for less than 2 months. But i will still worry… Bcuz i never wear so high heel and never walk cat walk before. So i will scare i might fall down when i walk on the stage. As for nervous, juz like people alway say “the more nervous u are, the more mistake u will make.” My unit point me to be a model on this Run way event, if any mistake, i sure make my unit lose face. And also my bf, not only my unit attend this dinner, also hv others unit. I don’t wish to hear people comment or ask my bf “why his gf look ugly?” or laugh at him that his gf fall down on stage during cat walk.

But overall, everything was fine. ha… Every one say i look very beautiful, they say i shouldn’t wear spect in camp. Even the organizer for the run way event, also told me that i look totally different from the 1st day rehearsal, he couldn’t recognize me after i put on make up and the dress. But izzit look so different? Izzit really look so beautiful? My bf told me that noone will say people look ugly. So izzit they juz want to entertain me? My bf didn’t say i look very beautiful, all was from other. So i was suspect others was juz entertain me.

My designer and one of the madam asked why i don’t ask my bf to go Ballroom take photo? I told them we had took 2 pic juz now at the backstage, they say two pic is not enough, so take more and Ballroom lighting will be better. So I told them that don’t need to take so many pic with my bf, guy is like this, if u choose to look for him to take pic again, become this girl is so yearn for him.  If he think that 2 photo is not enough and wan to take again, he should auto look for me, there’s no point for me to look for him again and again for taking photo.

I think only Mr Heng camera hv a lot of my photo. ha… He took alot on me. Waiting for him to send it to me. Due to this event,i hv change shift, spend two days and not so long with him. I notice he’s a nice, encourage and entertaining guy. Quite get along with him. But how come he didn’t hv gf? All the way, i thought he hv gf but yet heard he didn’t hv but i didn’t ask much. Juz incase people thought i’m interest on him. The Run way event hv finish, but my leg still cannot take a rest, there’s still two more activity waiting for me.

Last week, i had went to popular, i bought two books. Must be some friends will be surprise rite? ha… Lot of friends neo i don’t really like to read Book only comic book, unless ghost story but i will not buy ghost story book due to waste money. So what is the book that make me so interested to buy and read? The book are Subhas Anandan and why men love Bitches. I’m quite interested of how Subhas fight for the case like Huang Na, the one-eyed dragon and etc. I don’t understand why he will choose to help those people who hv done so evil things to other. But after i have read about the two case he hv fight. Actually, why those people choose to kill people, bcuz of love, money and hv hot temper. Who will want to let people cheat their money and their love. Imgaine u love someone so deep, give him/ her money to spend, hv sex or do so many things for him/ her but yet end up he/ she break off and look for other who are rich or bcuz wife/ husband hv get back( wife/ husband not around, juz look for target to satisfy him/ herself). That is why they will do so evil thing to the one they love…

As for Why men Love Bitches, this book to guide women how to holding their own relationship. Why do men take nice girls for granted? and etc. Let me list three scenario.

1st scenario: He call u and expect u to be at home.

if the nice girl leaves, she calls first to tell him where she’ll be and what time she’ll be back. Often she’ll assure him that her cell phone’s on, should he want to get a hold of her.

If the bitchs lets him think about where she is every now and then. She lets him wonder if she’s outside his reach by not always reporting her whereabouts.

2nd scenario: He says he’ll call at round a certain time after he gets in. The call is 4 hrs late.

The nice girl yells at him and says she was worried. “You should have called!”

The bitch isn’t so easily upset, so she isn’t so easy to read. She may or may not pick up the phone, which makes him miss her.

3rd scenario: He is very late for a date and keeps her waiting.

The nice girl waits, call him on his hp 4 times, and tell him he should “value her more.”

The bitch waits a half-hour and then makes other plans.

Izzit the book very interesting? Izzit telling those girl who are nice, should start to change a bit toward guy. Bcuz compare nice girl and bitch, guy will treasure more on the bitch becuz they are specical and not easy to get, so they will miss her. For the Nice girl is too easy to get, so some guy might not so treasure them bcuz no matter how, the guy already neo this girl will auto report to him whatever she do or where she will be.

So long didn’t update my frenzster blog. Hmm… Can say i’m quite lazy to log in frenzster since i have facebook. ha…

How my life now? I have completed all my courses, right now is on job training. Actually, i don’t feel like is on job training now, becuz we already started to work by our own self. I don’t know i can considered slow learner ma? Bcuz we separated into two different shift, i am not good in some stuff if compare to two coursemate who’s same shift with me. Hopefully i able to hand on well soon.

Next thing to update is I have removed my braces! Finally sia… I have wear it for 3 yrs and 1 month. A lot of friends and some relative have asked me when to remove the braces? I alway reply i don’t know. During sispec, there was a warrant even use my braces to make fun of me, making people laugh at me. Damn Angry >.O ya! There’s a news that might give some frenz a sock! ha… Rem last time i will alway say that ” future is new generation, don’t need to learn cooking. We can buy outside ma.” But yet, right now i have learn cooking from my mum. Actually, i have learn to boil soup very long time ago, but just know how to boil soup is not good enough. My mum always laugh at me and say” poor Tony, only can drink soup in the future.” -.-”‘ I have told myself that i want to be a good wife for my dear. So how to be a good wife? Of cuz must know how to cook and take care of him. But i can’t promise to be 100% good wife due to i have my career, but i will try my best to be… ^.^

My dear and i have appy house at Toa Payoh, the house will complete in yr 2012. We haven’t ROM yet, i know that some people might wondering about haven’t ROM, can allow to apply house? Yup, they allow to do so, and they will tell u by when have to ROM. So for us, we have at least 3 yrs to prepare. My sis-in-law had told me to go for those wedding exhibition which normally will be hold at Sun Tec. I don’t know izzit too early to go for those exhibition? Past few days, i saw from newspaper that there’s one exhibition at sun tec which is Brides and beauty (http://www.bridesandbeauty.com.sg/eventhighlights.html) and is free entry. But i don’t think he have those interest to go and might think is quite early to go for those exhibition ba.

Finally end of my basic course since last two weeks ago. After the course, we all will promoted. Before and after the course completed, we kana alot of unlucky thing happen. Even our oversea too…

Well, i went to Phuket with my coursemate. 1st time went oversea, quite excited and nervous. But due to the bad weather that day(heavy rain), plane delay. By the time we reached Phuket, about 8pm. We went there 4 days 3 nights, my coursemate really protect me over there. They won’t leave me alone and will follow me wherever i go( except Toilet). My coursemate had asked me why i don’t ask my bf to bring me go oversea? I have talk about it with my bf before regarding oversea together. Hmm… i know the reason ‘why’. So after my coursemate asked me, i told them that they don’t need to responsible if anything happen to me over there  and i can confirm that my bf won’t blame on anyone. This is what i need to make it clear with them, if not who will dare to bring me go oversea without my bf joining.

After enjoy and rest a week, back to camp for advance course. Our course can consider very BAD LUCK. I really don’t know why our course always kana either BACKSTAB and COMPLAIN by people which we didn’t do it and all the fault will blame on us. What i can say is all the “SHIT” stuff will kana us. I just don’t understand that 5 of us didn’t offend anyone in school, yet can kana complain and backstab. I was wondering izzit they have nothing to do, so free to stab us. LIFE IS SUCK RITE NOW ONWARD! 

Already Feb, two more days the CNY going to end. Well, this year CNY, we went to two more relative house which we have been very long never visit. They are my second cousin house and Gu Gu house. I was forced to go my gu gu house due to she stay next block of my 1st uncle block which she move there last year. Why i don’t like to go her house? There’s some reason. I only close to my father side is his 1st brother family. The rest, i don’t like to close with them. Long time never go to my second cousin house, this year went to his house, just stay awhile bcuz they were talking to my parents regarding another cousin who created problem during my second brother wedding. Lucky i meet my dear, so i can left early. ha…

I believe some friends would like to know how i’m doing now? Camp life, everyone know how it is la… Either on course or doing shit work. Mi is on course now, sry that i can’t tell what i’m doing or study of. I can say i’m quite enjoy with my coursemate, althought some time will make me angry. But at least we work as a team, help each others and funny is our side, noone want to get or fight for Best Trainee award.

Valentine day is coming and is on saturday! How we going to celebrate? I have no idea… Shawn(campmate) told us that her bf will bring her to a place for makan.  Although Shawn gave me a idea that bring my dear to Jewel Box. Wow… when i heard she say she spend $700 on her bf, just went to Jewel Box for photo and food. I really can fainted! ha… I won’t spend so much on just food and photo only for two of us. I will think is a waste only. And i won’t let my dear to treat me so ex if he want. I rather save the money for other usage. So as for me, better don’t ask me where or how i celebrate bcuz i don’t expect anything from him on valentine day. Reason is he might be working or have something on… If i put hope on that day, i might get disappointed, rite? ha…

Anyway, wish all of u have a Wionderful Valentine Day! ^.^

Going to end of the year 2008, soon is year 2009, time pass damn fast. Every year, before end of the year, there’s a month call desember which is every year will have. Why so special of desember? Well, becuz christmas is on desember. Everyone will choose to gather together and celebrate. As for me, this year christmas, my dear bought me to a romantic place for christmas dinner and went to capung to count down. I like the place that he bought me but too bad of the way i wear. I was thought is just a simple meal, maybe only went to eat sakea sushi etc at causeway point or northpoint. ha… If the time can go back, i will choose to wear nice nice to have a wonderful dinner with him. Anyway, i was shock that he can find this kind of place, for what i know him, he’s not a romantic guy, but now at least i know that he’s trying to do what bf should do. Really very surprise for me. Thank Dear for given me a wonderful christmas for this year ^.^

Few more days, one of my friend’s getting marries on 3 Jan 2009, he’s one of my friend that i know quite long, about 7 nearly to 8 years ( if i’m not wrong). He’s a very nice guy, i learn lot of things from him, he always like to correct me if i make any mistake or wrong things in the past. He just like my big brother, now he’s getting marries! Too bad on that day morning, i can’t join others to help him, due to before the day i have my unit anniversary dinner until quite late. Hope he won’t angry that i can’t help up in the morning.

Well… before end of my blog… What i wish for year 2009? I wish that

• can do well in my course
• Good health ( include those ppl i know)
• Wealth ( include those ppl i know)
• Remove my braces by mid yr or before ( tired of wearing braces, look ugly)
• Lastly… Marries in year 2009! haha… joking… hope my dear will pass his degree course and get his 2nd contract soon ( Promotion).

Happy year 2009! Happy New Year Everyone! Selamat Tahun Baru!

Well… Finally POP from BSLC! ^.^ I believe might be some friends want to know whether i have walk the 28km route march? My ans is NO, I didn’t go for 28km route march because i was att B on that day which last day of BSLC. After BSLC, we have to report back to Nee Soon Camp.

Report back to Nee Soon Camp, we have to restart our course, we have 4 guys joining us. For them, they will suffering abit, as for us ( ladies), we just to recall what we been taught during Pre- BMT. But… I might not been learning what i study now after next week onward, because I request to change unit which i heard that they need people right now. Although my coursemate don’t want me to change, but i think that i more suitable at other unit, there’s no point for me to waste time on something which i know i’m not good in. Pray that i able to change!!!

Let stop talking about camp stuff, let talk about last sunday i went to attend one of my BSLC sgt wedding dinner. He’s really a romantic guy sia. He done some thing which so romantic on the stage infront of so many people. If my bf do the same thing as what he do for his wife, i think i will cry out becuz i will feel really touching sia. ( Day dreaming, impossiable for my bf, ha…)

I can say this whole month really like hell~~~ Training very tough in SISPEC, not enough sleep and rest. Lots of test to take and just finish the 4 days 3 nights field camp.

SISPEC field camp more tough than BMT. The sgt told us that becuz we train to be a commander, as for BMT is to gain some experience only. Well, the weather was damn hot during 1st two days, becuz of hotel company also field camp at the same area, they had one trainee got heat injury on 2nd day, we all require to remove LVB. Lucky sia… ( sh i say that =p) Well, my leg got alot of bruise because of carry a stupid weapon,haiz… This field camp, i was quite lucky becuz jamie was not in my detail. hahaha… POOR SHAWN… She was same detail with her. Anyway, this field camp really make alot of people see how selfish and lazy Jamie is… Also i was quite shock that she will said:

• Either she choose to get out our unit or 3 of us fall out from the unit.
• Can’t stand us, especially me

Well, i don’t know what i did to make her can’t stand me, i ask around, all of them say i didn’t did anything wrong. O well, i don’t care… Anyway, everyone know that she like to blame all the fault to others, she always think she’s right.

Don’t talk about her liao, let talk about my dear. Is my dear Birthday! Didn’t accompany him on his actual day. My friends asked me why i don’t meet him out before actual day since was weekend, saturday also can. I know my dear will ask his Poly friends/ BMT friends/ army friends for gathering, no point to spoil his mood. Since every year, he will gather his all friends on his birthday, i don’t want him to change just because he have a gf, so let it remain the same, as long he’s happy will do. Happy Birthday my dear! ^.^

3 more weeks to go for SISPEC…

Nothing much to talk for this month… Hmm… only my Birthday and SISPEC life. Let talk about my Birthday…

Same as every year, didn’t jio friends out, didn’t really celebrate with my family and rejected some friends who want to celebrate for me. Well… Really thank to those friends who asked me out to celebrate my birthday but if i can choose, i rather stay at home and sleep. Unless my dear, well… i do went out with my dear to celebrate my birthday, juz had a very simple meal together, no candlelight or romantice cafe/ restaurant but It’s good enough for me, i’m really enjoy that day. ^.^

SISPEC life worse than BMT. All the commander over there really suck! In SISPEC, we don’t have bunk at company line, our bunk is at HQ. Every morning, 7 of us( girls) have to wake up 15-20 mins early bcuz have to march to company line by 525am and every night we will sleep after 1130pm/ 12am+. We are really damn tired until no time for us to study for test. Our vocation have send a 2nd sgt Teo to SISPEC to take care of us. OMG… I don’t know why send her to take care us. She didn’t :

• Train with us
• eat meal with us
• help us
• stay in with us

She only do and good in:

• Busy eating
• disappear
• Book out early and book in late
• Complain us
• Dirty the place

She even can keep the office key with her and went to Jurong Point to eat burger king, when we need to go back to the office to rest and do revise for the afternoon test. But becuz of her, we couldn’t do revise and rest, we have to sit outside to wait for her. SISPEC don’t have alot of physical training, only alot of lecture and test. It’s always make us fight with Zzz god during lecture. (-.-’”) My IPPT for 2.4km run have drop to 12.08min, quite sad but manage to remain GOLD. Lucky sia. ha…